It seems a reality that when a person is in a tight situation, he/she realizes who are the people that have really made an impact in their lives, he/she identifies people who have contributed to the welfare of his/her being even before the tight situation came. So in these situation a person immediately longs for his/her most trusted friends. He/she somehow expects that these people would be available to help. Moreover, it’s not even the ‘help’ that is wanted, it’s just the company and the encouragement knowing that a live human being is beside him/her and is walking with him/her even for just a few steps along way of that difficult road. Amidst the difficulty, amidst the pain; faith is strengthened; hope is heightened and love is expressed.
However, I find it also interesting that in these situation, the person in distress will also know who are the people whom he/she has touched for these people will be the people who are ready and are most willing to respond immediately to the call for ‘help’.
Why I am saying these things? As I write this blog (my officially first one), I am faced with the reality that tomorrow is the start of the two year journey away from the environment and people that I have grown to love. One superseding feeling I now realize during the past months is that in this situation I longed for the comfort, encouragement and love from the people that for me have touched (‘touched’ lang ba? Yung iba, kwan…) my life greatly. So I really tried to meet them. To paraphrase what a friend said, I went a long way just to meet them to a place where it is nearer for them to meet me (kaya lang yung iba hindi sumipot, bitter?). In one occasion I waited for a friend for more than two hours so that we could just meet for approximately 20 minutes.
So before I go and as a response to these people who took the time in their busy schedule to meet me, in the time where deep down I really wanted to feel loved (wow shocks, tears falling…), I want to tell you now that the small amount of time we spent together this past few weeks were very meaningful to me and I really felt loved. And I thank you for that (lalu na sa mga nanlibre! Sa uulitin! Yung iba, pwede pa, padala niyo na lang yung cash!), and I thank God for meshing our lives together. I do not really know when I would be able to formally and personally appreciate what you have done for me especially these past few days, but I want you to know that you are appreciated. I thank you for walking with me towards the door of the next chapter in my life (well I think hindi lang naman towards the door, kasama pa kayo sa mga susunod na chapters… subukan niyo lang mang-iwan sa ere!) And I would want to be there and walk with you in one of your difficult moments. Anyways, we’ll see again this Christmas season.
So this is it, my first official blog posted to the world, due to the insisted personal demand of a friend!
